For the first time in decades I have friends in my life. Not exactly headline news for the common folk but I surreptitiously felt jealous when my acquaintances would say things like she’s my BFF or best friend forever.
I had two earlier best friends, three if you count my sister Carol but those relationships have long since left me due to time, geography and death. So was it just my fears that kept me from losing another that kept me from my BFF? Or was it just my own low self-esteem? Speculation at this point and has as much meaning as melting snow now.
I think a lot had to do with just me staying out of my own way and allowing myself to be a man of attraction instead of self-deprecation.
You always have been a man of attraction you just didn't recognize it. You have the kind of charismatic personality that has not developed overnight. Certainly many people have thought of you as a good friend, but perhaps it was you that rejected them.
ReplyDeleteYou may be right let me think about that. I also am keenly aware that I miss things most people see without having to think. Once a friend called me his charismatic and eccentric friend. I thought that was nailing it.
ReplyDeleteAfter reading your post about your friend DJ, one may assume DJ=BFF
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